Last year I lost my faith
Lost my love, empathy replaced
With apathy
sometimes it's too hard to face reality
With an open heart
For what am I to think
When the life of a saint
Is ripped away
And life passes by,
the sun still set
Repeat, reset, with no regrets
For a man whose life touched more than mine
Still, his fate is locked to a chair,
And each time
The house falls to silence, you’re all it’s missing
With time on every wall,
Ticks track how long it’s been
Crates of dusty records I haven't heard since
Can't tell you where the days have been
The clocks sound louder and louder
Until my head is pounding
and you cross my mind
and each time
I can’t help but think
What’s the order to this
when you could be your best
and still, never see bliss?
This year I lost my faith.
Lost my love, empathy replaced
With apathy
Into something it was never meant to be
Fill my head with contradictions
Rewrite life make it fiction
that won’t make it less real,
But it’s impossible to heal
For what am I supposed to do
Pretending we can be bigger than the life we were born into
Each time
the house falls to silence, you’re all it’s missing
With time on every wall,
Ticks track how long it’s been
Crates of dusty records I haven't heard since
Can't tell you where the days have been
you cross my mind
and each time
I can’t help but think
What’s the order to this
when you could be your best
and still, never see bliss?
I fear someday I’ll memorize the lines on the ceiling
Every crack until my mind starts seeping away
I hope I find another way to believe there’s order
Even if it that’s untrue
It's the least the world owes you
Each time
the house falls to silence, you’re all it’s missing
With time on every wall,
Ticks track how long it’s been
Crates of dusty records I haven't heard since
Can't tell you where the days have been